I'm not the type to get my heart broken
I'm not the type to get upset and cry
'Cause I never leave my heart open
Never hurts me to say goodbye
Relationships don't get deep to me
Never got the whole in love thing
And someone can say they love me truly
But at the time it didn't mean a thing

“Ash, you coming,” Melina asked as she packed up her bag. Ashley looked up at her friend, a blank expression on her face. “The show’s over. We’re leaving.”

“Yeah,” Ashley replied forcing a smile. “Don’t know where my mind went.” She chuckled, but it was mirthless.

“I think I know,” Melina said smiling kindly and slinging an arm around her friend’s shoulders as they exited the women’s locker room. “How long has it been since…”

“I’m fine, Mels,” Ashley said cutting Melina off and shrugging her arm off. “I think I’ll get to the hotel on my own. With that she slung her bag over her shoulder and headed off.

“Suit yourself, honey,” Melina called. “If you need to talk you know where to find me.”

Ashley hadn’t heard a word of it. She was too deep in her own thoughts. She was trying desperately to figure out how she had let a man get to her. Trying to figure out how he had stolen her heart when she kept it so closely guarded.

Relationships had never been a serious thing to her…not until she had met him. Her world had been turned upside down and she had no idea how it would ever go back to normal again. This was something completely different for her. Something she had never felt before.

My mind is gone
I'm spinning round
And deep inside
My tears I'll drown
I'm losing grip
What's happening
I stray from love
This is how I feel

She had been so deep in her thoughts that she hadn’t noticed anyone walking towards her. He too was not looking and she collided with him. She stumbled backwards, the bag falling from her shoulder.

“Sorry,” she mumbled and looked up, meeting intense hazel eyes.

“It was my fault,” Hunter mumbled awkwardly as he picked up her bag and handed it back to her. They stared at each other for a long while, neither knowing what to say. “I should…go.” With that he rushed off down the hall.

Ashley watched as Hunter made his way down the hall, stopping to talk to Shawn and Randy. It just didn’t make sense to her that someone she had known for such a short time could have such an impact on her life. Staring after him she just felt empty inside.

This time was different
Felt like I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now I'm in this condition
And I've got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

It hadn’t been very long ago that they were sharing and bed and then all of a sudden he was gone. Now she went through the motions of her life, but she just wasn’t there…not really. She could feel the tears stinging her eyes, but she bit them back. No matter how badly she wanted to let them flow she refused to let Hunter see her cry. She turned away from him before he could see her staring and headed off.

Did it happen when we first kissed?
‘Cause it's hurting me to let it go
Maybe 'cause we spent so much time
And I know that it's no more
I should've never let you hold me baby
Maybe why I'm sad to see us apart
I didn't give to you on purpose
Can't figure out how you stole my heart

Ashley managed to get to the hotel quickly and slipped into her room before the rest of the girls could corner her and force her to go out with them. Tonight she just wanted to be alone with her thoughts. Tossing her bag aside she kicked off her boots and threw herself face down into the pillow.

Most weeks she managed to avoid Hunter and for that she was thankful. Tonight, however, seeing him…it sent her into a tailspin emotionally. She had thought that she was coming to terms with the break up. Apparently not. She soon found herself thinking back to their first kiss.

“You look really beautiful,” Hunter said softly as they watched the sun setting.

The golden rays were catching her blonde locks and making them a radiant gold. Her tanned skin was bathed in a golden light giving her an ethereal appearance. They had been at his friend Shawn’s party and had slipped away from the crowd so that they could talk without competing with the music.

“Mr. Helmsley are you trying to flatter yourself into my pants,” she chuckled.

“Maybe,” he replied smirking. “Is it working?”

“I don’t know,” she replied with a cheeky grin. “I think you may need to work a little harder.”

With a chuckle he took her in his arms, wrapping them around her tightly and gazing into her blue gray eyes. She felt a shock of electricity the moment he touched her and relished the feel of his warmth close to her body. Soon his face closed the gap between them and he captured her lips in a soft, sensual kiss.

Ashley choked back a sob at the memory. She could still feel the warmth of his body and the softness of his lips on hers. The tears once again burned her eyes, but she forced them back. All at once memories flooded her; their first night together, lying in his arms and the comfortable silence that would settle between them during lags in their conversation.

A lone tear slipped down her cheek, staining the pillow. Sniffling she wiped it away and sat up. She had to be strong, be like she was before she had met Hunter.

How did I get here with you?
I'll never know
I never meant to
Let it get so personal
After all I tried to do
Stay away from loving you
I'm broken hearted
I can't let you know
And I won't let it show
You won't see me cry

There was only one problem. She wasn’t the same woman now. For the first time in her memory Ashley was heartbroken. She hated to admit it, but she had fallen in love with Hunter and he had walked away from her. The tears streamed down her face now as the realization hit her.

With a shuddering sigh she stood, wiping her face with the back of her hand as she headed into the bathroom. She let the hot water run and turned on the shower, hoping the water would relax her enough to sleep. Hoping the hot spray would wash away her pain.

This time was different
Felt like I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now I'm in this condition
And I've got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

In the morning she would need to head on to the next town. As she disrobed and stepped under the hot spray she made up her mind. No matter how much it hurt Hunter would never see her cry. In time her heart would heal and she would move on with her life.